I’m doing something scary tomorrow. We’re having family pictures taken and it’s a little outside of my comfort zone. I love family photos but I had all kinds of excuses why we should wait.
I’m not skinny enough.
My hair hasn’t been done in a while.
I don’t have the perfect outfit.
In the end though, none of those excuses matter. It’s been years since we’ve taken a professional family photo and my daughter wasn’t even around for the last photos. Sometimes the negative self talk can really get int the way of moving
forward. I could wait forever, but my life is happening right now.
I’m not where I want to be right now. I have a double chin. I have a small gap between my two front teeth that popped up during my last pregnancy and makes me want to go get braces again because I’m so self-conscious about it.
I have to silence the voice that tells me I’m not good enough the way I am because I’m going to miss the chance to capture my family as we are. This is what we are going to look back on and remember.
I hope that, as a mother, I’m doing a good enough job making amazing memories with my kids that when they see me in our family picture they won’t see my split ends or the extra belly fat that each one of them contributed to. I hope they’ll see me and that they’ll be happy to get a glimpse into this window of our lives.
My family has experienced loss, and while I hope and pray we’ve had our share, nothing is guaranteed. I don’t want to be the one avoiding the camera lens and taking the opportunity to have a complete family picture away from my kids. Whatever the road ahead holds for us, we have this moment.
Tomorrow I’ll hold my head high (partially to hide that double chin) and smile as big as I can. I’m practicing being brave.
When’s the last time you took family photos?
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